March 31, 2009
```````“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you…happy birthday to you~ happy birthday to you!!”, these were the lyrics that hit my ears…from my family and friends.
````````I’m 16 now. However at this moment, the music evoked a sense of nostalgia to me. It recalls moments with my family and friends in the past. It was so real…every single year I celebrated my birthday, but with different types of events. Now, my primary school friends were mostly separated. Fortunately secondary life remains calm…
````````xP being emo again… xD Yeah! I had a tiramisu cake this year…Lol, & I did receive a lot present from my friends, mostly are my scout friends, thx to you all!! xP & Siew Ying too, although we scarcely know about each other…& of coz I won’t forget the wishes and gift from Mui & Qi Rui, thx ya!!! My birthday will be meaningless without you all!!! Yet, I waited for her wishes…3, 2, 1…my watch showed 12.01 am…She didn’t…I think, maybe she already forgot about my birthday, or…even already erased me in her heart and mind…
````````Form 4, an upper secondary life…it wasn’t easy, it wasn’t simple either…I was trying hard to overcome…Can my wishes be revealed?...
````````-At the peak of the summer hill, an awful swelter; The frozen strength, completely snowed under all moments- ; 11:55 PM
March 28, 2009
````````It’s Anugerah Cemerlang day today. Yeah!!! I got a prize titled “Anugerah Pelajar Cemerlang PMR 2008”. Well, not only me, almost all the 4Sc1 student got it too! As last year Ridzuan said “Semangat 3S!”, it means as we’re in the same class, we’ll have the same aim, the same spirit and the same heart. And we did it! Half of the students in 3S successfully got the prize. Ridzuan, James, don’t worry, although we’re not in the same class now, but remember, we’re still in science class right? Our aims are still the same.
````````- Although we had separated into different world, but remember, they shared the same sky; one sky, one destiny -
````````Soon, there was some performance on the stage. Lol, the chorus speaking girls were just alike the little angel in the peaceful heaven, cute! xD Next the Chinese orchestra came up to the show. Wow, they performed so well, I wish I could join 2…hardly la..TT Lol, & Qi Rui really impressed me when she performed with her flute. As I know she joined the orchestra not even years, yet she can perform on the stage d, “Pei fu, pei fu”…I wish I can as talented as her in music 2…TT Lastly, the choir, a group of little singers xP The girls were cute as they tied a blue ribbon =P haha, mui & me oso very happy that day. ^^ Long time didn’t have a wonderful moments like this…
; 8:01 PM
March 23, 2009
```````“Sometimes I do really need luck, just to chat with you…”
````````It was last Friday, it’s been some weeks I didn’t chat with her. I was relieved when she said that her bf treats her well, taking care of her…at least she’s always protected. As a friend, I give my best wishes to them, hope they always be fortunate; happily ever…
````````For all the moments I had waited, school finally reopened, but somehow I’m not that glad, maybe I’m emo again gua?...xo
````````During today English period, 4Sc1 had to face the oral test. Just at the minute before my turn, my heart beat like hell. Lol, luckily it resulted as an A1, yeah!! Hope mui will have the same result as mine… =) Hmm, bit stressed coz of the “tuitions” for today, yet the homework can cover up my sight d…TT Haiz, life in Science Stream…Terrible!!! =;=
````````Hmm, & mui seems to be very good mood today, besides much more willing to chat with me in school, we chat in phone at night joyfully too. Lolz, she’s bit angry with me cuz I keep teasing her with…Shh!!! She’ll kill me if she’s reading this. Better don’t say anything xD. Lol, hope we can remain life like this forever…can’t lose her...=P
````````Somehow, beside Sheau er, by minutes I start to feel, there is someone else who I can’t lose too…Sheau er is my sis, but how about her?...she’s neither my hearts one nor sis…She seems to be in my mind every moment. Now, her importance to me is just like Sheau er’s…She is just like a leaf which I hardly let goes…hope we’re friends forever…
````````There’s one more thing which really distracting my mind these days… Lately, I hurt a girl. I know she liked me a lot but… I’m sorry…I really can’t… I wish the whoever girl in future be my gf, I can love her and try to make her fortunate as much as I can…I will just do anything for her, even giving out my life…but I know I can’t do these to you…I don’t wanna lie just because have sympathy…When I loved someone, I don’t wanna lie…k? Erase me off…there’s always another piece of land which is better than me…I’m sorry, don’t want to hurt you...
```````“Friends forever!~”…
-As clock ticked, the time passed; as wind stopped, it remains calmed…-
; 11:41 AM
March 21, 2009
````````Yeah!!! My blog finally have a nice template…Thx to Qi Rui, she’s a great designer…Should call her sifu d, gotta learn lots from her …See, she’s younger but more pro in blogging …haiz, I wan cry d TT…(Jk oni la) Anyway…Thanks Qi Rui, I own you one…=)
````````6.00p.m. I have a game with my bro & some of his friends. This basketball “battle” separated into my team & my bro team, which 2 on 4. In 20 minutes time my team won!! And yes!! The score resulted 11 – 2. Lol, my partner was only a 12 years old boy, but his skill was quite ok…not bad for a kid!! Pity my bro…boo~ xD
````````Tonight, my parents went to Genting for a concert. So, my bro & I went out for dinner at KFC nearby… Later, we curi curi on9 at Cc nearby 2!! xP dun tell anyone k?
Lol, hope 2day ends well…
; 8:20 PM
March 16, 2009
````````Holidays…kinda bored. Well, I still often have some plucks on my guitar strings as usual. For me, no music no life... Seldom sms these days, a lot of friends went for vacation, just me…haiz =;= stayed at home, awaiting for tuition… Life’s bored right? TT
````````Lolz, my parents even banned me from games or even touching the PC. But guess what? I “curi curi” playing cs and blog offline late of the night alone in my room…Don’t tell ya!! xD What to do? I was bored like hell! Eat, sleep, study zZz.
````````Anyway, at least there was something I glad about. I successfully blended my own coffee. Coz of my parents had just bought a smoothie lately, & I was trying to make out of something with it. My bro & my parents tasted it, they said it tasted just like the ice blend coffee at Old Town & San Francisco. Yeah! I did it! ````````Now, just awaiting for her and my friends to taste it…hope there is a chance and can get their compliment…^^
; 5:15 PM
March 15, 2009
````````Reading my Scout log book at night. Lolz, “Journal of 1st scout camp of 2009”, it was held from 7th to 9th of March. It was a memorable camp…
`````````I & my mates had lots of fun there. As I remembered, on the first day, it rained, so we had to camp at the hall side. Well the good news is we settled everything in short and successfully, but the bad news is boys and girl must have a separated camp side, boo~ =;=
I had meet some new friends from Seri Saujana & Sri Petaling. Yup, they were friendly, we chatted lots of stuff at the 1st night. They even asked whether the girl that I loved was around =P…haha, I didn’t answer, shh!! Secret! xD
````````Whoa, now only I know, music really do bring lots of fun & joy to others, why? Lol, on the 2nd day, during rest time I played my guitar just for fun…without notice, a gang of other school friends came & try to sing along. Well, we do really had fun at that moment. How about noon? Argh!! Don’t really wanna mention about it, but since this is my blog… They wanted us to cook our own food, guess what? There are only 3 types of materials…& we got 6 people in a group. Think logically, surely not even enough for us! They trying to suffer us…boo~ TT
````````But this was not what really made me sad. The real reason was, I failed to set up a fire…but somehow my mates did! I trained them, they are all my best mates I trained and were the chosen one in this camp, now, they had overridden me (no negative means). Of course I’m glad and proud, for you all, my members. Perhaps I should upgrade myself, yeah, I must!!!
````````Well, this camp ended at 2pm on Monday. We took pictures with Saujana’s & Sri Petaling friends. For me, thanks to Carmen, she’s a new friend I knew in this camp. Beside, she’s also the one who gave me courage and joy in this camp, (she talked a lot!) =P jkjk!! Lolz, we took a picture on the last day. Thanks Carmen! Won’t forget you! Finally, the whole SmkTd Scout Team had some picture with our respected judges & instructor – En Rizal. Formal, free style, we had whatever we wanted! Oops, but there is a similarity between them, we had our “Cheers”!!! ^^ Yeah! Scouts Rocks!!! xD
; 8:12 PM
March 14, 2009
```````“Oh No! It dropped…” “Phew, no scratches”…
````````Today, I dropped my most important item, I thought...
````````Actually, why am I that care about it? It’s not any longer meaningful to me, she’s his; […] Face it buddy! Forget about her! [Me] Well, I did! I knew that long time ago & I did it! […] You sure? Well then, why are you still keeping it? You should’ve discard it... [Me] I…dunno, but I made a promised to myself, any day if I have a girl I luv & she care about me too, surely, I will throw it away! […] Alright! We had a deal…
````````Truly, I loved her lot last time, but it was 2 years ago. Now, this is the only thing left which is related to her… Maybe…the reason I can’t toss it away is…a memory that can’t be deleted…Although I have no more feeling towards her, but I just can’t, dunno why… Me & her, were just friends…
````````The only wish of mine at this moment, may he be able to give happiness & whatever it takes, she is cared, protected by him.
```Friends forever… ; 7:20 PM
March 13, 2009
```````‘It's raining…”, “Yeah, this made me thinking of a song…”, “What song?”, “七里香..“ ; These words were so clear, I still remember in my mind, it marks my first…ever first…
````````March 13, it’s been 9 months we separated… No, or we even already separated that time. Distances, spaces, were the reason we broke… I still remember, at that moment, I tasted how the feeling is when you are losing your own soul…it just like a bird who lost her wings; a fire without its flame… I mostly failed in everything, thanks to my sis, she woke me up, thx ya mui…
````````At 11.55p.m of December 31, I thought we were going to meet, why? Why? I was that persistent, I was trying so hard, I searched everywhere, just to see her...but it ended so cruelly, it was only few meters away, we distanced…eventually , we didn’t meet. “Happy New Year!!!”, the voices were so loud, they pierced into my ears…the pain was awful. Fireworks showed up seconds later… Yes, they were beautiful, but they weren’t what I really wanna see… my heart, was deeply hurt… I guess, maybe I’m the most emo boy in class, I dunno…
```````1 January of 2009, a new year… How could it be? Peaceful? Suffering? I dunno know either, but I know, I’m ready to face my fate this year. Hope God set up everything well... Lol, me and her, we know it, it’s impossible… Anyway, lately, from her blog I knew that she had new bf d… It wasn’t too hurt, perhaps time neutralizes my feel to her d… Now, I want to forget her totally, Cuz I know I can’t, crush on 2 girls in the same time… Well, who could another girl be? Lol, it permanently remains a secret… =P
```````Flashbacks… it’s time to erase them in my mind… 1, 2, 3… I was trying hardly…really hardly…
; 4:47 PM
